FMF

Illinois Gov. Rod Blagojevich
This is my new hero, first and foremost he is Not where he thought he would be. Second he wanted the keys to the castle before the King was sitting on the Throne.

O.J. is not where he thought he would be. I don't feel bad for him because he should have stayed his ass at home. I do however think it is BS that he got time for trying to get back what belonged to him. Only in America.

I may be on to something.

This blog is my therapy to push me to crash through this wall of life.

It happened again, the statement “Not where I thought I would be”. I was talking with my ex-wife and she was talking about how depressed she is, when the quote of the blog came out. I just laughed to myself and told her to join the club. She did not get it and I did not explain. It was another example of if she just had listen to me, we would have both been farther ahead instead of 3 steps back. That is one of the reason we are not together.
I’m learning that life is all about what you put out you will get back. The issue is can you see it when it comes and can you capture it when it does come. A good friend of mine says find out what you like and make money off of it.



Listening to Phyllis Hyman “Living All Alone” and this song always touched me in ways that I cannot explain. I remember the first time I heard her sing and thought to myself she can blow and when I saw her, I was blown away (I still look and her and say WOW).

My Daddy

I was helping my dad today and it got me to thinking about where he was at my age and where I’m at in my life. He had twin boys who were 11 years of age, a great career and a wife who loved and supported him. I have none of these. Here is a person who was the first child born on free land in his family, high school education, Jim Crow laws and just plain tough time for a black man. Me: private school, college education and all the opportunities in the world. I’m not blaming anybody for the choices I made they are mine and mine alone. It just goes with my theme of the blog. I understand things are different now than back in the day (economic) and no jobs is safe. However, my dad had the sprit of the hustle and I was lazy when it came to making extra income. My reasoning is because I was making good money and like a lot of people I thought it was going to last forever (or at least for the next 20 years).
What happen to our generation did we get lazy, complacent, or were we just plain Spoiled. Is this the reason me and my circle of friends are down on life and where we are in this part of our journey of life. Could it be that we must learn to be humble to fully understand what is really important?

What it all about ?

This blog is about me, you and everything in between. I though of this blog because of two conversations I had with friends of mine. 

The first conversation was with a swinger friend of mine. We had just got done "having fun" when the pillow talk started to happen, she asked me "if I thought I would be in the situations where my life is right now." A couple of days later, one of my best friends and I got to talking and out of the blue he asked "if I thought I would be in the situations where my life is right now." To both of them I answered no, just like they answered no. This got me to thinking about if we feel this way how many other feel this way.

First lets get to my situation: Divorced (no children), unemployed (got let go in August), single (with no prospects), over the age of Forty. Don't get me wrong I thankful for all my blessing but I'm blogging about not being where I thought I would be. 

This blog is my way of expressing my frustration, excitements, joy and sorrow to get WHERE I WANT TO BE !!!!!!!!!!! In the short and long term of my life and hopefully I will make you realize that we are all in the same boat, we just have to look over and see other passengers.